Battle Through Trauma

Hot Kettles! Trauma isn't a friend to man, like Jesus is. Although Jesus may be present at the door, He doesn't enter in until invitation is accepted. I have dealt with traumatizing situations in my life even before I was born. I learned that from one of my parents through their storytelling, and reveals of my life through their own. I consider myself a really good listener. I am also very observant of everything. Here is a part of my heart. My trauma teacup story.

From childhood to adulthood traumas have haunted me, yet I could still find a smile to share. Raising my own child, is making me reflect, and come to understand things from my childhood upbringing that freezes apart of my brain. Memories keeps repeating itself, or clarity comes. My mini me is away for 2 weeks. It is her first time away from home. I am very happy for her. She is with my eldest sister so i know she is safe, and well taken care of;however, I have been experincing the worst case of anxiety. I don't think it is necessarily about her being gone, but my own childhood traumas reflecting backwards.

In between the ages of 7-9, my parents were going through a nasty divorce. People say, " What is or was happening with and/or to your parents has nothing to do with you'. I am here to correct that statement, by saying, It absolutely does, especially when your parents don't know that themselves. Therefore, whatever they are experiencing, the child is also. It could be indirect, or direct, but the experience is felt, especially from emotionally inclinded children. I am emotional to the core of my being, and I experienced many parts of my parents rage and/or hurt, which created trauma!

I'll have to do this in parts, but lets say for today. I have learned and grew, but traumatizing memories still are in my mental download, and I am working hard to release the negaitve polarity. The first step to the release is letting Jesus know, I need Him to intercede on my behalf like never before, and He is welcomed to come in. I fully submit to Christ. Meaning there's many things i need to stop doing, and stop allowing so that i can be relieved from the traumatic life experience, and truly enjoy full happiness. It's pivot, and declutter season.